I want to dedicate the next 40 days to genuinely seeking God. I want to deepen my relationship with the Holy Spirit and be able to better discern what this next phase of my life is meant to be. I want to specifically spend the next three weeks fasting and seeking God because I will be experiencing the most change during this time. From moving away from home to adjusting to being in a new city and then beginning the first few days of my new job. But not only will I be experiencing physical change, I know I will be battling with a whirlwind of emotions that comes with transition. To be best equipped to handle whatever comes my way, I want to commit this period to study His word and hearing His voice.
I will be studying “ReThink Life: 40 Day Devotional” on the YouVersion Bible App.
“Which Road Am I On?”
I’ll be honest. I am the happiest and most confident when I feel as if I am in control of my current situation or environment. When I can dictate what is going on around me and able to plan out what’s ahead of me, I feel at peace.
But let things start to turn in another direction, or the path ahead gets a little blurry. In those moments, I feel as if the world is falling apart.
So, this current place in my life has caused me to feel as if I’m stuck at a road with endless diverging pathways and possibilities.
As a recent graduate of THE Howard University, I find myself in such an awkward phase that most college grads come to after achieving such a fantastic accomplishment.
The moment of “What Now?”
After being able to explore who I wanted to be for me in an environment that still provided me some structure and stability, I am now faced with the endless possibility that is adulthood.
Beginning this brand-new part of my life, I have been in a constant battle of longing for the security of a plan while facing the uncertainty of being thrust into the “Real World.”
So, to ease some of the stress, I began to create a roadmap based on what I thought was the best route for maneuvering this transition. I mapped out my career plans, how I wanted to maintain my relationships, and how I would handle my newfound independence.
But in the middle of my planning, I had begun to hear a single message from the Holy Spirit. “Wait.”
I won’t lie to you, at that moment I was a little taken aback.
After years of battling with what I thought I wanted to do with my life and career all throughout high school and college and to finally realize what I wanted, I’m told I need to wait even more? But that’s just on my makeshift plans.
Waiting seems even more impossible when I look at my current situation. In a matter of days, I have to move completely across the country. I don’t have the resources that would help make the transition smooth. I have to say goodbye to all my friends and family. I am entering into a career field I love but have minimal experience in. Now is the time to jump into action. Now is the time to move!
But I kept hearing Him say to me over and over, “Wait on Me.”
I heard it like a whisper in my ear. I was told prophetically by my best friend and line sister’s Aunt. I heard it in a message from a visiting pastor at my home church. I read it in a devotional I was studying with a close friend. Just the constant news of “wait.”
In spite of my own wants and desires to move right into action, I received the message and began to pray and ask that God would give me a fresh eye to see what He wants me to see and new ears to hear exactly what I need to hear from Him.
And guess what? He did just that.
I began to hear the Holy Spirit speak to me about different areas in my life were waiting on making a move would be the most beneficial to achieving the purpose placed on my life. I began to allow the Holy Spirit to touch my heart and my mind that I would learn to be patient and not rush things just because I want them right at this moment.
When God asks us to wait on Him to move in our lives or to give us what we need, He’s really asking us to trust that everything is under His control. Trust that he will supply all of our needs.
God’s plan for our lives is far better than any idea, road map, or strategy we could ever create for ourselves. His plan is never to harm us or take us out. God ultimately wants to give us everything we desire that aligns in His will. He wants us to be blessed and achieve all that we are called to do.
We just have to be willing to give up what we think is the right thing for ourselves to receive what He knows is the ultimate best thing. And after receiving His best, you’ll find that you love His plan far more than the one you started with.
So, I challenge you, as I’m challenging myself, to allow the Holy Spirit to speak to your heart. Allow Him to order your steps so that you may walk into your purpose. You don’t have to experience significant life changes to seek His guidance. You can ask Him to guide you throughout your day and watch as He leads you to the desires of your heart.
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Much needed read! Great post ❤
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